July 8, 2023 I went back to the hotel after dinner, and they were all there. I fell asleep on the sofa. When I woke up in the middle of the night, everyone was gone, leaving me in the empty living room. I couldn't sleep last night – I hadn't been like this in a long time. Couldn't sleep at two in the morning. When I closed my eyes, I could see all the horizontal and vertical strokes, but when I opened them there was only darkness. I got out of bed, smoked and drank. Didn't go back till dawn. I wanted to sleep in this morning, but the alarm clock woke me up. I felt weak, but still, I had to go downstairs and paint. I got a haircut and had noodles with eggs and tomatoes. In the afternoon, I got better and slowly found the feeling that I was going for. I modified the background.